Isn't that THE most beautiful shade of blue?!
I guess this homemaker's thoughts from the past week have been on how God lets us go (and grow) through things in our lives, but then at the right time gives us strength and courage to move on. Over 25 years ago, I went to Bible Study Fellowship (BSF) and that is where I came to know, trust, and give my life to Jesus. A note here - if you can find a BSF group in your community, I highly recommend it - it is a LOT of work, but getting to know your Bible better is worth the work. Or, maybe you can contact someone to see if a group can begin in your church.
I came to this Bible study because I KNEW I had changes to make and while there a verse jumped out at me from the Book of Joel:
"I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten.........". Joel 2:25 I knew God was speaking to my heart. In that even though I had wasted SO many years of my life up until then, He was going to give those years back to me and renew my life. And He did. Again, I have to say that it wasn't perfect or all sunny days, but I knew I could trust Him.
Over the years, during the ups and downs of life, God continued to bring that verse to mind as a reminder that that promise YEARS ago, is still one that I can hold on to today. The past three to four years have been some of the saddest, difficult, and challenging years and this past week God brought Joel 2:25 to me once again. He will restore these past three to four years that have been eaten up from relationships gone bad, from distrust, from doubt, from anger, from fear. I have said before in past posts that this time of our lives we can truly feel God at work in us and He really is restoring us through our new church family (3 years now!), new friendships, new responsibilities, new interests, etc. and it's exciting to wonder at how God will use us and renew us and refresh us so that we can say goodbye to the past and move ahead in where He wants us to be.
So, with all that said, I'm going to definitely give God the glory!!!!! It's only through Him that we can feel our lives getting back to some kind of normal and truly love the people He is bringing into our lives when we need them the most. Alistair Begg had a great message on how we deal with our past - even though we have dealt with the past, have been forgiven of the past, we often open that past box with all that rotten stuff in it, peak inside once again to remind ourselves of how rotten things were, and then we're right back in the "woe is me" state of mind. (This is my summary of his message). And that is so true of me. I push the replay button WAY too many times when I just need to leave it all to Jesus.
The past week has been one of the best weeks I've had in a LONG time - my husband has felt it as well and we agree that we feel like things are finally turning around after the grief. And it's not like we had this huge revelation, or all our problems were gone, or there weren't still some concerns - but we have truly felt God's hand of mercy and grace upon us and now we are ready for the next step in our life wherever God leads.
So, He is indeed repaying us for the years that the locusts have eaten and I continue to claim that verse in my life. Thanks be to God!!!!! : )