As I thought and prayed about today's post, I started to doubt if I had anything at all in which to say. I mean, if you were to walk beside me this past week and read the posts from this past week, it wouldn't look like much. I woke up early to have my time with Lord and read from His Word (I'm in the book of Psalms now), I got ready for the day, had breakfast with my husband, worked on my to-do's for the day, rested and read a little, prepared the evening meals, went to bed. Nothing in any of that that would be of any meaning for anyone other than us here at home.
But then I thought about it a little more. What got me to the point of where I am now in this moment of time. To the point of having a husband, having a son, having a home, having friendships, and the ability to enjoy them all. The road that led to this point has certainly been a rocky one. Ups and downs and twists and turns, even a deep pit where I lingered longer than I care to admit. So, how does one who is all bruised and dirty get to the point of being so grateful and thankful and satisfied and blessed? God.
My Heavenly Father. My Pursuer. My Strength. My Shield. My Teacher. My Friend. My Mighty Warrior. My Guide. My Rock. My Fortress. My Protector. The Holy One. The King. All Majesty. All Knowing. All Powerful. MY EVERYTHING.
One thing that did cross my mind, if only for a moment, was how I could go back to all those people who saw me at my worst and tell them that I have been repentant and redeemed and changed and forgiven and made brand new. All those people in my past that I have hurt not knowing how, now years later, I feel so sorry about so much and wish I could let them know. As far as I know they may still think that I live in that pit.
There is one thing that I would love to tell middle school, high school, and college-age kids - be SO very careful NOW in what you do, what you say, and how you act, because there WILL be a time that you grow up. And if you don't behave responsibly when you are young, the irresponsibility will follow you into adulthood and you will influence people in a way that is not good and your reputation will be at stake. I know that when we're young, we tend to be very selfish and self-centered. When we're young, we can't think past this day let alone look into the future.
It's difficult to live with regret and every so often I struggle with it (because there is an enemy among us - Satan - who wants to keep reminding us). But, because I have been saved from my past by God, I can quickly choose to not dwell on it. Christ died on the cross to save me from all those sins - He bore the sins that I committed and was willing to die a horrible death.....for me. And you. If you are struggling with sin (past or present) please ask Jesus into your heart. Confess your sins to Him and let Him take over. You will be absolutely astounded at the change you will experience. And, then tell someone about the decision you made to make Jesus the ruler over your life. Believe me on this one. I know. First hand. If He can change me, He can change anyone.
God loves you dearly and so do I . : )